Interview: Portland, Oregon, USA
February 29, 2016
I think it's hard to pinpoint the one thing that's truly important, but I think lately the thing that's been resonating with me is this idea of emotional honesty, and allowing yourself to be a really open person. With the world, and also with yourself. Trying to find honesty with your own emotions, sharing that with other people, and being okay with it. Being okay with how you feel, not trying to lie to yourself about how you feel.
I've learned to be super unapologetic about who I am.
I feel like lately, especially after moving to a new place, it's really easy to want to change and shape yourself in a different way. I did a lot of that when I moved here from Florida. I got new tattoos, I changed my hair color and cut it, and I became just this whole other person. Someone that I've kind of always wanted to be, but I never lost this essence of who I am. I have this really passionate essence of myself, I feel things really really deeply, and I think for a long time there was a bit of shame that came with that. Because I don't think that a lot of people really feel comfortable with an intensity like that. I wasn't even comfortable with it for a while, but I've learned to be super unapologetic about who I am. And, in a way, it's made me feel more comfortable with OTHER people, because I'm more comfortable with myself.
I think everyone is trying to do their best to make connections, but I feel like we're missing a lot of it because people are too scared to be vulnerable. And too scared to be honest. I think we're afraid of hurting people. I've done it, rather than being honest with someone I'll just kind of shut them out. But that's doing an injustice to them, and to me as well. Because what sort of impression are you leaving when you just disappear out of someone's life?